Posted by: katedaphne | November 26, 2007

The witch is back…

… and we’re on!

All the hassles, etc., of arranging bloodwork on weekends turned out to be totally necessary, as “the rent” arrived Saturday, with a vengeance. Went for baseline u/s and bloodwork Sunday morning. As I was sitting in waiting room, I could hear the doc calling quest, requesting a courier, ordering the LH and FSH in their lab, etc. I am pretty sure it was staged for my benefit, but I’m cool with that!

Phone call from Cornell came as scheduled yesterday, and so yesterday evening I started my Clomid. And hubby started his doxy. We start stims Wednesday and have to be at Cornell Friday morning for CD7 b/w and u/s. So we are goign to fly up Thursday evening.

Hubby was getting very stressed and nervous with all this info. The idea of another cycle is messing with his head I think. Even though we both wanted to do this, and in fact we are doing it now as opposed to next year b/c he wanted to get on with it. Still, it’s a big thing to wrap your head around.

On the other hand, I am feeling great. It is a relief to have a plan and know what’s supposed to happen. I can be a pretty spontaneous person, but I don’t like just twisting in the wind. Now that I have a general track, I am pretty happy to go with the flow (so to speak).

We’re trying antagon this time, supposedly to try to get “better quality eggs” but I suspect more on the “let’s throw everything at the wall and see what sticks” theory. It’s about the last thing we haven’t tried. I’m not a typical antagon patient — My FSH is fine, all measurable everything is fine. I respond pretty well, get good number of eggs and “perfect-looking” embies. Although, in the last two IVFs, a few of the embies had dark-looking rims (I forget what that’s called just now). I guess they are supposed to be more clear. So they resemble the embies of an older woman (I am 36 now but was 34-35 then). So the prevailing theory is try to medicate to get better eggs. I know enough to know you can’t really get “better eggs” — but it’s the one thing we haven’t tried.

The protocol, if you’re interested:
Clomid, CD2-6
150 follistim, 2 vials menopur, starting CD 5
Later, ganirelix, etc….

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OK, this next is for my friend Kami, who I can tell by her blog is having a rough time. She’s pg with donor egg, so that’s a happy thing — but not without its ups, downs, and sideways. If you get a chance, go visit her blog and lend her some encouragement. Her blog: Are we there yet?

Kami, one of my favorite songs is by Mary Chapin Carpenter. It’s called Why Walk When You Can Fly? Here are the lyrics, but if you can find a copy of the song and listen to it, it is even better.

WHY WALK WHEN YOU CAN FLY?
In this world there’s a whole lot of trouble baby
In this world there’s a whole lot of pain
In this world there’s a whole lot of trouble but
A whole lot of ground to gain

Why take when you could be giving
Why watch as the world goes by
It’s a hard enough life to be living
Why walk when you can fly?

In this world there’s a whole lot of sorrow
In this world there’s a whole lot of shame
In this world there’s a whole lot of sorrow
And a whole lot of ground to gain

When you spend you whole life wishing
Wanting and wondering why
It’s a long enough life to be living
Why walk when you can fly?

And in this world there’s a whole lot of golden
In this world there’s a whole lot of pain
In this world you’ve a soul for a compass
And a heart for a pair of wings

There’s a star on the far horizon
Rising bright in an azure sky
For the rest of the time that you’re given
Why walk when you can fly?

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Responses

  1. Thanks Kate! I bet I can get it on i.tunes. Nice thoughts.

    I’m excited for your next cycle! My RE swears by the antagon protocol and only using lupron (mircro flare) for poor responders. Although I am sure your right that the decision was made as “Hmm . . . we haven’t tried this yet”

    Lots and lots of good luck for you.

  2. It always feels a little perverse congratulating somebody who wants to have a baby on their period, but you know what I mean,

    I hope that the cycle pays off,

    xx

    J

  3. Congrats on getting started again. I always feel better when I can actively DO something towards getting pregnant. Good luck on Friday!

    Thanks for posting the song lyrics. I used to listen to that song frequently, but haven’t for years now. It was a reminder I needed.

  4. Congrats on getting started again. I always feel better when I can actively DO something towards getting pregnant. Good luck on Friday!

    Thanks for posting the song lyrics. I used to listen to that song frequently, but haven’t for years now. It was a reminder I needed.

  5. Hi… just came across your blog. All the best to you this cycle!


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