Update: Are you here from LFCA? Thanks for coming, and welcome!! The part you’re probably looking for is about five graphs down.
Not much is happening around here. I am trying not to be too moody and not to dwell on things. Getting a good night’s sleep is still a (losing) battle.
I did an unchracteristic thing last weekend. Usually I hate buying clothes because I keep thinking, hoping, that I’ll be pg soon (i know, ha) and so I don’t want to waste money on “skinny” clothes that I hope I’ll never fit into again, starting asap. So my wardrobe has been pretty crappy for, well, a couple of years now. And here I am in the middle of a FET cycle — and I went shopping and bought two pairs of size 0 pants. No way will those fit a pg or post-pg body — but, I am not feeling very hopeful at all, and I was getting sick of my clothes. So two pairs of nice summery capris (and two matching shirts) later, here I am.
The frozen embryo transfer is set for May 12. I have an u/s Tuesday morning to check my lining. I have been sort of bad about taking my estrace. I am supposed to take it three times a day but damn! I can’t even remember to EAT three times a day, how can I remember to take a pill three times a day? I generally get two in and sometimes all three. I know it is working though because the CM is abundant and egg-whitey. And since I’ll be on the estrace for an extra long time, to get me over the gap while the lab is closed, I’m not too worried. (and why should i worry? it is not going to work anyway…)
Still going to the gym several times a week with my mom. Though with this FET cycle on I am not allowed to do any cardio and am only allowed to lift 20 pounds. It is kind of a waste. But I go to keep my mom company. We enjoy hanging out. And frankly, if is cheaper than doing almost anything else we’d be doing if we had this many outings — we’d be shopping or eating out or something probably. So it is all good. And I’ve found that if I do like 100 reps on the inner thigh machines I can feel it a little, even with only 20 pounds. So I do that.
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Had an interesting experience the other day at work. A reporter I work with in the features department, a pretty famous one around here (he has a Pulitzer and has written a book), interviewed me about my experience with IVF. He is working on a story for a series we have examining science and religion and he’s interested in the moment life is created thru ART, and in the doctor who makes it happen, and the patients who experience it. He can’t use me in the story, of course, but he wanted to talk to me to get background knowledge. I have talked a lot, pretty freely, about my experience but it is different with a skilled interviewer. Also, I don’t know him that well and some of what he wanted to know was pretty intimate. But he was super nice about it and let me know I didn’t have to answer any question I didn’t want to. And he was so interested and so caring, it was very easy to tell him a lot. It was strange because he is looking at it from an outsider’s perspective, and he’s looking at the “macro” side, the big picture. And I am a patient and am very much the “micro” end of it. Of course I have thought about the big picture, the “god” and “science” aspects of IF, etc. etc. But this conversation was different and interesting. And while it was difficult at times, I enjoyed it.
By the way, this reporter will be wanting to talk to some IVF patients for his story, preferably (but not exclusively) from the Tampa Bay area or anywhere in Florida. If you think you might be willing to talk with him, let me know and I will hook you up. It isn’t a news story or a fact piece about IVF, it’s more about people (patients, docs, scientists) struggling thru and experiencing the “science and religion” aspect of ART. I can personally vouch for the sensitivity, caringness and skill of this writer, and whether anyone who blogs is in it or not, I can’t wait to read his story.
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